Can you keep up?

Wow family...can you keep up with us? NEVER a dull moment in my life! Ok..except right at this very moment..Ben and I are so used to moving 90 mph that we are bored..and can't think of anything to do! We can't allow ourselves to rest and relax..we might forget something...or we may never get going again! We actually have a weekend together at home with "nothing" to do! This is our second one this year!! You would think we could come up with something...our systems are is shock. I am mostly not taking advantage of it due to probably the most painful period I have had in years! I thought it might be an easier one because of the drugs...putting me in menopause and all! Instead I feel sick, tired, in pain, and hot flashes to top it off!
Well, once again court was postponed! Shocker! Now it is scheduled for March 8th and trial is on March 13th. At least that is around the time I will be staying in SLC anyway! I don't feel stressed out over the court stuff...I feel very confident that it will all work out! I am getting nervous for in-vitro! A little nervous over the proceedure and more nervous on what to do with the girls during the crazy part! And as if that wasn't enough to try to focus our emotions on...it could be any day that DCFS calls us to ask us to take Laila's half brother and sister! Luci told us they know where they are and it won't be long before they have them in custody! Lots of praying to do! I don't feel adequate for the job...but I don't know if I could live with myself if I turned them away! Kassie, I never thought I would need to ask your advice on how to accept the Lord's will when he sends children at inconvenient times! It feels so overwhelming! I don't know if I can handle so many children in such a short time! Any words of wisdom? If we accept the challenge and then if in-vitro works we could go from having one child to 5 or 6 in a years time!!!! Not to mention...what will I do with 4 kids if they show up during the next 2 weeks? I am stressing over what to do with 2! And, the other 2 could be going thru some extremely emotional and hard things at that time! AAAUUUUUGGGGHHHH!!! I need to breath...and go take my shot....and go to bed! I have tomorrow to be obnoxiously bored and then back up to SLC for more tests and my first ultrasound! Yipee!! At least being back on the road will feel normal! And....I get to go alone this time..lots of talking to myself and solving of problems will take place I am sure. Then maybe I can start taking the "crazy" drugs!...mom, you still up for helping with the girls?...and boy and girl....and the dog....and Ben will need fed from time to time...and ...just kidding! Hopefully the timing of everything will work out better than what I am imaging right now! Love all of you, I couldn't do any of this without all of your support and love! We have such an awesome family. Hopefully I can raise my kids to love each other and to stay as close as we have! Thanks for allowing me to complain and explode here tonight! Love, Wen