I NEED YOUR PRAYERS!!!

Wow! What a weekend we have had! Within 72 hours we had to consider the shocking offer to take in more GIRLS!!, not knowing if it would be a foster situation where we will have to deal with giving the baby back to her family after we bond and attatch to her, or if it would be an adoption situation with the family being as close as Moab! Then once we made the decision to go for it, we had to 'mad-dash' to get ready. Then we got to meet Lily and take care of her for 6 1/2 hours while the shelter family went to the Moab Music Festival. And to our surprise ...she has more special needs than we has been told about! So if our emotions wern't fried enough...I felt anger towards DCFS for withholding this kind of info from us! So it's like being told .... you're pregnant...and due within a week....and you might get to keep her and you might not....oh, and she's has special needs! I felt like I had been hit by a freight train!! Needless to say, I have spent a great deal of time in prayer! I did some major soul searching and crying yesterday. Heavenly Father took some pity on me and quickly made if VERY clear that this is what we are supposed to do for now! Answers to all the other questions and fears are still unknown...but all I needed at the time was to know if this is the right thing to do! So I hope I can have all of your love and support through this...I will need it! Lily is such a sweet baby and she is so beautiful! I think it will be a challenge to care for her but I already know it is easy to love her! We get to spend more time with her and the shelter family today and some tomorrow and then the case worker will bring her to me on Tuesday! We think the condition she has that might be causing some of her other problems is called tortocollis. This is where she holds her head down on her right shoulder. I would imagine having your spine kinked is affecing her acid reflux problem and possibly the drainage in her ears causing her to need tubes in her ears. She also has very sensitive skin requiring special care and products. And she needs help keeping her bottle and binky in her mouth. It's really nothing too major...but enough to send my emotions through the ringer!! Heavenly Father must have an aweful lot of faith in me or else I am due for a large piece of humble pie! Either way I know I have His love and support! I can't wait for all of you to get to meet her and feel of her sweet spirit! I know our time with her will be a blessing to our family! Love you all, Wendy